Like.. no joke. New layout is a must. I want this color set again, just with a different arrangement.

I doubt any of my random-remaining followers are HTML geeks. If so, yes, I would like to swap you a doodle, or something, for a nice new look.

I intended this entry to have a dramatic feel to it, but hey, let's not kid ourselves. Lambert needs no drama.

Nothing new to report; my last entry on the subject of current events summed up my situation rather well. Recap: living with Mom, dating a girl named Gill. The former sucks, and the latter is decent.

I'm in that position where I am sort of a nonentity. I'm like a ghost, at least at home. I'm someone to sort of ignore, especially when I'm being pesky. I think it's the uppage of the Risperidone that makes me so.. weird. My brother said something about being embarrassed to be seen with me because of my inherent weirdness.

I went to a party recently. I trotted out the Crazy lines, and so on.. but only a little. No one really blinked, or made it in to a subject of fascination. I got walked home by this Danny guy; if he'd been sober, I think he would have tried hitting on me. Either that, or the raunchy attitude is a ploy used around crowds. In any case, he was sweet, and sad, walking me home. He understood the lesbian thing rather well. Actually, he seemed amused that we'd dressed alike. He too thinks my style seems to hint of masculine tendancy. I like to think I exude gay around men. I like to think that they'll get the hint, and bring me in to their flock. I like being one of the guys. It makes me feel content.

I'm not content, not at home, or in my head. I've explained to Gill a little about my retreat back in to my head. I want to back off from my friends; they don't seem to want to deal with me, anyway. My Crazy friends get me, but my sane friends are starting to get sick of the novelty of befuddled little me. Sarah might be the rare exception. She has me over all last week for (what we called) our Buffathon. (Which would be Buffy the Vampire Slayer.) Thinking of Buffy -- the upcoming seasons sort of disinterest me. Mickey Mousing, Angel departing -- augh, how can I live through Buffy without Evil Angel??

Yeah, I know, I'm like 10 years behind.

I need new shows. I'm purging stuff from the terabyte. Huff, Technolyze, all the faulty stuff.. maybe a bunch of stuff that I didn't really give a shit about when I first got it. I want more really weird shows. Well, weird, psychological, odd.. stuff with good plots. I need to get some scifis, maybe.

I feel I have nothing really to say at the moment. I just like the feeling of writing.

I'll try to write in here more often, when I get an internet connection that people don't get in my way for.